if I was immortal and didn't know it

If I was immortal and didn't know it

I would have lived in every single moment like they counted.

If I was immortal and didn't know it,

My mind would have been my worst enemy.

If I was immortal and didn't know it,

Not everything would have come easy.

If I was immortal and didn't know it,

I would have needed love from the people around me.

If I was immortal and didn't know it,

My grudges would have burnt with the bridges.

If I was immortal and didn't know it,

It would have taken a lot less than words to destroy me.

If I was immortal and didn't know it,

I would have treasured their faces and smiles while they lasted.

If I was immortal and I didn't know it,

I would have been subconsciously thinking of the countdown I was under.

If I was immortal, but had no knowledge of it,

My passions would have driven me until my very last breath.

If I am untouchable by the gods, but I don't realise it,

Every hardship and struggle,

Every single ache

I would ignore.

I would charge headfirst into the pools of hope

And drink, hoping Circe had tried to trick me.

I would defeat lament,

And the hot tears of self-pity

And grow.

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