Nonfiction
The Law of Oneness
What is the Law of Divine Oneness? The Law of Divine Oneness is the principle that everything in the universe is interconnected and part of a unified whole. It means that every person, every animal, every plant, and every object is connected to each other and to the universe itself. Simply put, we are all one.
By Sergio Rijo2 years ago in Chapters
How Things Went From Wonderful to Terrifying.... Content Warning.
There is something you should know especially if you are reading this and questioning yourself and your relationship....it wasn't always awful and terrifying with Wade. As a matter of fact, most of the time I thought I was the most blessed girl in the world. I mean we did have quite a lot in common although not quite as much as I had originally been told, he did tell me he loved me and that I was beautiful every day, we also had similar ideas when it came to dates and what was fun as we would ride down the backroads with the windows down, hair blowing in the wind, hands and arms stuck out the window as if we could fly. We would spend hours upon hours talking about our dreams and wants and our goals in life. Wade had a way of making me feel as if I was his whole world and that was all I had ever wanted and those dark times? Well, that was my fault partly right? I mean I was a lot to handle and I knew that. It took a long time for me to realize that the give and take, tug and pull he was giving me was highly toxic and forming a deadly bond. Wade was keeping me sick, sick for him and I couldn't even see it. Even though I more than once begged Wade to just stab me already, I told him if that would make the abuse stop(the verbal, mental and emotional abuse) and it would get his anger out to just do it already! He just gave me a sickly smile as he said he would never do such a thing. I also once told Wade that I felt when I spoke to him that I was walking on eggshells and he turned it around on me by telling me that because I was such an emotional person and cried over most everything he said he felt the same way. Words...they were such fragile tangible things now...much like glass and if I didn't handle it with the utmost care the words would surely slip and cut me. Shortly after we got back together and even dismissed our divorce Wade decided upon the advisement of my pastor and numerous conversations between the both of us that it would be best if he quit his current job as it was a very toxic environment and not conducive to his trying to quit the alcohol/drug addiction he was trying to beat. So, after a very dramatic ending Wade left that job and decided to go to school for something he'd wanted to do for a long time which was gunsmithing. I was fully supportive of this and excited for him to start this new chapter. However, Wade would have to find a way to support us all while he went to school as my job paid most of the bills but not all and certainly could not support a family of 6. This is a conversation that Wade and I would end up having on several different occasions. Wade began to expect me to take care of everything financially and school became his top priority. I would tell him that I didn't have the funds to pay a certain bill or buy groceries and his response would be either, "Don't worry. I'll take care of it." (but that never happened), if brought up more than once it was "Well, what the fudge(to put it nicely) do you expect me to do about it?!" or "There's food in there. Just go look." but there was little more than enough to make a peanut butter sandwich and certainly not enough to feed a family of 6. I once stood in front of Wade in our carport and told him after I'd already had a long day at work, "No, I can't go buy you cigarettes' because I have to use this money to buy supper for us." Suddenly, he leapt from his chair and his anger filled the entirety of the space around us as he yelled and berated me I knew I'd do anything he wanted just to get out of there. I quickly got back into my car and went to get the cigarettes. He told me later that night that what had set him off was that I had told him No and that I should've known better and to word it differently next time. Wade did keep a variety of jobs throughout this time but he job hopped so frequently that I often lost track of what job he was at at that present time. At first, he wanted to be a security guard but then that ended because his truck started having mechanical issues and instead of trying to find a solution he quit the job, then it was a variety of gas station jobs and perhaps a couple of other things mixed in too. All of these jobs were fine but Wade found a reason to quit every single one of them and every time without a two week notice which would leave us without a paycheck from him for weeks at a time. He put us all in a very tight predicament financially and expected me to pick up the slack. This was very triggering for me as my ex husband had done the same thing to me at one point and although I tried to explain this to Wade and make a better financial game plan he just seemed indifferent and honestly seemed to care less. I even offered to get a 2nd job to help get us through "these hard times". I put it as non judgmental as possible and I was greeted with a "No woman of mine will have 2 darn jobs!" At that point, I started Doordashing and using the Uber app to make some money despite what Wade said so we could eat supper and so I could get gas money to go back and forth to work. If I could feed all of the children then I did but if I couldn't then I just fed myself and my two birth children. I wanted to be able to feed all 4 children but I often times couldn't afford it. Wade started to pull away and it began to be clear that the beginning of the end had started. The abuse picked up....My son was in band at that point and had started marching band and it was football season so often times myself and Aliza would wait in various places in town if Doordash wasn't busy for hours just sitting in the car because we were both too scared to go home. I would wait until I could pick my son up then we would go home. I would tell the children to lock their bedroom doors. When we had come back from my father's my son's bedroom had been ransacked and things had been stolen. It had been blamed on one of LJ's friends and later LJ took responsibility but he wasn't punished because "he was just getting his anger out". He had also destroyed a picture of myself and my two best friends "sisters" from our vacation earlier that year by ripping my face out of the picture. It was one of those old timey pictures you get dressed up for and cost an arm and a leg. Again, he was "just angry." I can't tell you how many nights I had to tell Aliza to grab some toys really fast so we could go because I knew Wade was about to explode and I didn't want to be around or for her to be around for it. Eventually, I hit my breaking point. On the night of September 1, 2022 Wade was raging about how I'd pushed and pushed and pushed, how I just wouldn't quit and now I get this side of him. How I've made this side of him come out because I decided I wanted this to happen...all whilst he was slamming things and shaking furniture in our bedroom. I was sitting on our bed petrified but this time I thought, "I'm recording this, at least the sound, so others can hear it and I can know for sure I'm not crazy and I can know that this is for sure abuse." So, quietly, meekly, I slipped my phone under the covers and pressed record. In total, I got 9 minutes of verbal, emotional and mental abuse recorded that night. At that point, LJ had moved back in with his mother and Wade blamed me. He had me read a text that was from NJ that said that he too was wanting to move out. Wade explained that he wasn't letting me read this to "start anything" but then proceeded to tell me that I had already pushed one of his children out and was about to push another. He then told me that he was going to tell me what I was, that I was "bipolar as fudge, today happy and cool and the next day your sarcastic and being an butthole, your sarcastic, your demeaning, your condescending, you are the worst of the worst, you are like my mom for God's sakes...make me think you love me then you play head games with everyone of us...." He constantly said that I didn't give NJ and LJ enough attention and love even though I tried so hard to be there for them. I probably was grouchy sometimes because the boys after a time never gave me any respect. They broke anything nice that I ever brought into the house, they argued with me constantly and Wade never once backed me up.
By Lindsey Altom2 years ago in Chapters
The Black & White World of 1938
I think we see the world from eighty-five years ago only in stark black and white. Old photos, old movies, old stories. And the rules and social mores were pretty much in black and white, too. The greys of culture then were hidden, attempting to blend in and disappear, even though there was some pushing still going on for the greys. But pretty much, in those days, as I see it, people didn't have too much time to rebel because they were too busy putting food on the table. After all, it was near the closing of a decades long Great Depression. So, it was indeed, a basic black and white existence. I try to hold onto all of what I have left of my family from that era in a few of those old photos, some stories, handwritten letters, and other scattered memorabilia. But the problem is, that the story from my family's 1938 life needed some factual answers and some color. I wanted to uncover the true story of their lives. I wanted to really get to know them. They deserved it and I needed to learn from them.
By Shirley Belk2 years ago in Chapters
TOP 3 DEEP SEA UFO MYSTERIES
High Brazil: A Phantom Island High Brazil, a legendary island west of Ireland, has captured the imagination of sailors and explorers for centuries. Described as a paradise hidden behind mists, it was believed to appear only once every seven years. Although it's been sought after for over 600 years, it remains elusive. Some accounts mention silver, gold, and giant black rabbits, while Irish folklore connects it to the origins of Irish gods.
By Qandil fatima2 years ago in Chapters
Unraveling the Enigma of Antarctica
Antarctica, the frozen continent at the bottom of our world, is a place of extremes. It's covered by a massive ice sheet, almost 3 miles thick, and experiences temperatures that plunge below minus 50 degrees Fahrenheit, along with ferocious winds reaching up to 200 miles per hour. It's a land of mystery, sparking our imaginations and curiosity. In this article, we'll delve into the enigmatic world of Antarctica, exploring questions that continue to baffle scientists and some intriguing claims about its hidden secrets.
By Qandil fatima2 years ago in Chapters
Is Time Travel Possible? Exploring the Science Behind It
Time travel has long been a captivating concept in science fiction, but recent research suggests that it might not be as far-fetched as we once believed. While traveling to the future is theoretically feasible, venturing into the past presents some significant challenges and paradoxes. Let's delve into the science of time travel and explore its possibilities.
By Qandil fatima2 years ago in Chapters
Uncovering Ancient Mysteries
From the frozen landscapes of Antarctica to the buried city of Pompeii, the world is filled with captivating mysteries waiting to be unraveled by archaeologists, scientists, and explorers. In this article, we embark on a journey to explore some of these enigmatic places and discover the secrets they hold.
By Qandil fatima2 years ago in Chapters
Unveiling the Intriguing World of Alien Encounters
Home security cameras are often considered essential for protection against human intruders. However, what if the intruder is not a human but a being straight out of a science fiction novel or movie? In 2006, one Florida man, David Eckhart, may have experienced just that. As he slept peacefully in his Pensacola, Florida home, his closed-circuit camera captured an otherworldly encounter that left him and his son in disbelief. This article delves into Eckhart's extraordinary experience and explores the broader phenomenon of alien encounters, spanning from the late 19th century to modern times.
By Qandil fatima2 years ago in Chapters
Exploring the Enigmatic Mysteries of Area 51
In the vast, desolate expanse of the Nevada desert, about 120 miles northwest of Las Vegas, an unmarked dirt road winds its way to a dried-up body of water known as Groom Lake or Homey Airport. Though there are no visible structures from a distance, this desolate stretch of land is home to a place that has fueled countless rumors, speculations, and conspiracy theories - Area 51.
By Qandil fatima2 years ago in Chapters
Mysteries of Extraterrestrial Influence on Earth's Life
In 2010, scientists in Germany made a surprising discovery about our human history. They found clues suggesting that early humans didn't just live alongside other ancient human-like creatures, but they also had babies with them. Even more amazing, they hinted that another unknown species might have left its mark in our DNA. This shook up the idea that human evolution was a straightforward line from ancient creatures to us.
By Qandil fatima2 years ago in Chapters
