Hurt

You left just as quick as you came. While the time may have been short, it was time that was meaningful. You unleashed things in my soul that have been caged for far too long. While my heart and soul yearn for you. You've shown me I am not worth the time and effort you started to show. We may talk again, we may never talk again. Either way, I will have to learn to live with whatever choice is made. You have been a first for me for a few different things, and I will always appreciate you for what you showed me in a short few days. No matter what I will have a love and appreciation for you for what you have shown me.

I try and message you, you don't respond. I cannot help my heart and soul want to reach for you. I see your heart and soul don't feel the same. I wish they did. In reality, I know it may never work, but there's never harm in trying. I know we need to both heal on different things. I know you're hurting from some things. I am hurting from things as well and know you need your time and space. My heart and soul want to be there for you while you heal, even if it's not the way I was originally hoping for. You are special to me even if we never get to speak again.

You will always be one of the people I will always appreciate for the things you showed me and have opened up inside of me. While you now no longer speak to me in any way shape or form, I still wish to hear your voice and see your face. I know that may never get to happen again.

I'm hurt. We had a true connection, even though the distance was keeping us apart. It may still keep us apart. Even if the distance were to close, would that change anything? Maybe, maybe not. Only time will ever tell anything. You have a piece of me and forever will. I wish things were so different. Unfortunately, only time will ever be able to tell. While I manifest the things I want, are you manifesting the same? Do you wish the same? So many things run through my mind about you from the time I wake up until, no even in my dreams you're there.

While you may not speak to me in person, you always talk to me in my dreams. You were the first to not ignore me. You were the first to get me to unlock a submissive side. You're the first to make me feel things multiple times without ever laying a finger on me. While the man I have been with for a decade can't even scrape the surface of the man you can be. I wish I could watch you become that man I know you will be.

You may have made your mistakes, so have I. It doesn't mean I would look at you any different if you were to come to me directly and tell me things like what others are accusing you of. I don't want to hear it from others, I need to hear it directly from you. I hope I meant something to you like you were saying.

I opened up to you and told you how my marriage ended, then you ghost me as well. That's only one reason you've hurt me. The other, you ghosted my daughter, who was getting attached to you, who still asks for you. I just have to tell her no, no more of you right now. I hope you come to me and we can talk like adults to end this chapter.

I hope you know, even though you hurt me, I still care about you, a lot.