friendship
C.S Lewis got it right: friendship is born when one person says to another: "What! You too? I thought I was the only one!"
Journal Entries (Part I)
INTRODUCTION: I need to keep writing. I don't even care who is listening anymore. I have too much to say. I am going to find more time to write and publish entries, so I can keep my sanity. Well, there are lots of reasons I need to write more. Well, three reasons. ONE: I need to get better at writing. I used to write a lot more and I was better back then. I know practice will help boost my creativity and hopefully make me a slightly better writer. TWO: I have been having very bad anxiety recently and I always used to write to help my anxious mind find a little bit of an escape. Sometimes I feel like my thoughts can kill me. I am spiritual and I believe that the things you think about do produce a certain energy into the universe and can have effects on the future events of your life. I know this might sound crazy, but all my life I have felt a heightened sense of awareness of my thoughts and how my thought patterns seemed to attract certain things into my life. It is strange and in some cases its what makes me so anxious, just knowing or feeling like your thought patterns really do have an effect on your life and what happens to you. I have experienced these things in both negative and positive ways. I will write about these things later on, probably. THREE: Now, for the third reason, I want to write down my experiences to remember them and reflect on them one day in the future. I am 18 years old right now, 19 in less than a month... I want this to be a place where I can be as vulgar and explicit as I want. I want to share my world, because we all have our own definitions of what the world is because we all view it differently, so fuck it. Why not tell your story?
By Kara Vanessa8 years ago in Humans
Toxic Friendships
Throughout my life, I have endured friendships full of hatred and toxic mannerisms. I always believed the longest you'd known your friends, the more they loved you and would stick around through anything; but now I know its quality over quantity. I'm now out of the hellish friendship group I spent four years with, and now I'm with a friendship group I've known for a year and they know me more than anyone ever did. Spotting a toxic relationship is very difficult when you're the victim. You always second guess but think highly of them and believe they'd never hurt you. As a matter of fact, it's bullying, it's a lead up of bringing you down, talking behind your back, and never being there. The red flags really come down to the fact that you know you never get anything good out of the friendship. My relationship with one girl in particular was like a boomerang; one minute she would be with me and she would act like a friend, next minute she would come back around and she would be manipulative and would degrade me from the smallest things. My experience led me to damaging my own body so that I suited their needs and pleased them and not myself. Throughout the group, it was constant drama and bitching about each other to the other girls. It was not healthy! That I knew, but I was too scared to leave; knowing I would have no friends and in fear they would tell my secrets to other people—which I knew they were capable of. I decided to wait until I left high school, which was never a good idea because it was still difficult. One day I just had enough and left and blocked them on all social media so they could forget about me and I could forget about them. As for now, I feel so much better. I'm beginning to love myself. I'm beginning to find better people.
By Jodie harris8 years ago in Humans
Adult Bullying
I have to warn ahead a time that this will be very personal in describing what happened to me and to all involved in this situation. Some may find this triggering, so if you are easily triggered even as an adult, consider stopping here. It is not easy for me to outwardly talk about this, but I will do my best to do so, so other adults like myself are aware there is someone else out there who we can relate to. It's never too late to talk to someone about what's going on in your life if you really need to.
By Aliyah Sanguedolce8 years ago in Humans
Freshman Year
About a month ago, I finished my freshman year of college. That is absolutely insane to think about. I clearly remember my parents dropping me off last June to start the work program. Moving into my dorm, meeting my roommates, and attempting to make friends was absolutely terrifying, and I wanted to go home pretty quickly. But as I look back on the 11 months that I was at school, I am so grateful for the opportunities I had. I grew as a person, friend, and Christian. The greatest opportunity I had, though, was the opportunity to meet so many amazing people from across the world, and call them my friends.
By Abigail Ooten8 years ago in Humans
Slow Swimmer
In the twilight of my years I often remember a simpler time when life moved slower with peace and grace. Many a day I often strolled along the shore path of the lake I called home for so many summers when I was young. There in the peace of the morning when the sun first began to shine it's warmth upon to cool still waters I often notice this lone slow swimmer. From a short distance from the path I was on this gentle figure whose slender grace poised a most breathtaking sight. The beauty of her figure matched the ease of her tempo for her rhythm was like gentle waltz. Her gentle sway as she swam was like the rolling waves that rolled on in. Her locomotion moved me to a completely different reality.
By Dr. Williams8 years ago in Humans
Five Types of Friends to Treasure
Who here's got that certain buddy that we turn to when we want to get out and go dancing, or go to the mall? Or the ones that really know how to let loose and have a good time! Or what about the ones that always know how to make your heart soar? The ones that you can't function without, the 'mi casa es su casa' kind of friends? Those are the best! Here are some of the greatest personalities to keep around.
By Charity Hamilton8 years ago in Humans
Fake Friends
Okay, so we've all had one of those "besties" who turned out to be the absolute worstie. Think you haven't? Think again. Unless you've had a limited amount of buddies in your lifespan who treat you like a true friend would (which is very, VERY unlikely), you've had a "Friend" who was downright phony to the core.
By Legitimate .8 years ago in Humans
Troubles With a Psycho
It’s normal for people to have many friends, maybe even a few best friends. However, one of my best friends is close with a psychotic, crazy girl. But, before I get into that, let's backtrack. I have known "Sara" since we were both 5-years-old. We are currently 21, and we became closer last year when I moved back with my dad to my hometown. With that being said, we do everything together. We go to lunch, we club, we even study together. Our relationship can't get any better, but there is someone threatening it. Sara has another best friend named Esther. Sara and Esther have known each other since they were 12. They met when Sara moved away to a neighboring town. They instantly got close, but from day one Esther has always had this weird obsession with Sara. Esther is either in love with Sara and doesn’t know how to act upon it or has a mental disorder. I mean that with the uppermost sincerity. It’s not inaccurate for me to make these assumptions. Whenever the two of them go out Sara ends up telling me the next day that Esther tells strangers that they are “together” and tries kissing her. It makes Sara uncomfortable but yet she continues to just let it go.
By Grace Manzo8 years ago in Humans
Realization
The word realization by definition means "an act of becoming fully aware of something as a fact." It is the perfect way to describe that word. Recently I have had the biggest realization of my life. I know it won't be the only one, but for now, it has put me into a rut. I am in a place that I know I shouldn't be. It is all my fault, if I am being honest. I let myself get to where I am at. I didn't listen to the ones looking out for me. That is what I get. I can't help who I am, nor should I apologize for who I am either. I am going to give you a little backstory on how this all happened. It may be a little long, but I hope you see where I am coming from. Hopefully, I'll find peace within myself. Instead of staying up until four AM because it's the only thing on my mind lately.
By Ayana Ramirez8 years ago in Humans
