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Shush

A Poem

By Conor MatthewsPublished 5 months ago 1 min read
Shush
Photo by Eric Ward on Unsplash

You are the vestige of my love:

An echo of emotion long since dissipating into apathy.

A muscle memory of happiness flexing more in dull repetition than lustful instinct.

A collected oddity inherited from a dead self more alive to me than the stranger I married.

A worn patch grooved into comfort but wearing shear and frayed against cold distance.

A hollow chill felt with touches and kisses which linger from a ringing romance struck no more.

A malaise of platitudes performed in hopeless jest to try bored luck and fill the dragging hours.

A love that has settled like flaky sediments into a bed of decay and patient disinterest.

A clear sign I am undeserving of your willingness to overlook my deepest being.

#HI

Free Verseheartbreak

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Conor Matthews

Writer. Opinions are my own. https://ko-fi.com/conormatthews

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  • Dharrsheena Raja Segarran5 months ago

    This was so poignant. My favourite were the last two lines!

  • A Pen

    Growing up I loved to write. I wrote stories and series for myself and it would be pages among pages of hand written stories or books. I remember I had written 500 pages of a book more than ten years ago that I still open and edit. All of these were handwritten first. I would use a paper pad and a pen. I was was always very picky when it came to using the writing equipment. My journal has a specific pen I use otherwise it feels like I had committed a crime. I once bought a Swarovski pen specially for my leather journal. The weight of it was perfect, but I had written with smoother pens before. Yet, this pen reminded me that I can sparkle too because of course it had Swarovski crystals in it. I kept it in a box that I would take out every time I journaled. This was not my favorite pen though. The easiest pen I have ever used was from a company that you could purchase from Chapters/Indigo. It was called poppin because they had used bright, fun, colors to make writing supplies wonderful. I remember the first time I used it. I was in university and was in need of very good pens because I did not have a reliable laptop to carry to my classes. I picked up the box I bought and picked one out of the box. I took the little gel bead off the top that blocks the ink. I placed it on the paper and it started to flow, it was the most pleasant feeling I felt in a long time. As soon as it touched the paper the pen wanted to write more, it wrote so smoothly I immediately hid the other pens back into my backpack so no one could “borrow” it we all know that meant you were never seeing that pen again. The ink was deliciously smooth writing across my notebook. I wanted to keep going even after I was done. I started doodling and found joy in writing again. That’s how much a pen can change your day. I know it’s such an adult thing to say. I wrote with other pens too such as the frixion pens because an erasable pen that actually erases. All that’s left is the indent on the page how ingenious! I remember in elementary they were “erasable” but you could still see remnants of blue on the page and if you wrote on top of it, it looked sloppy.

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