ptsd
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder; The storm after the storm.
The Time I Almost Lost Myself
I had a weird dream, which came very close to a nightmare. It was I standing on the top of a spiraling staircase looking down at the many flights of steps I have to walk and not seeing the bottom floor. This dream kept coming vividly to me more often so when I’m faced with difficulties in life. As I consumed the dream of a spiraling staircase, then came a dream of me driving up a narrow high hill in which the top of the hill was so wide and steep, but had houses above it as well as surrounding it. As I was already up at that hill, I try to go back down, but my fear of heights hit me really bad that I felt in my mind that I was going to be on top of this hill for along time, until reality hit me and coached me that, You can’t stay were you at forever, You have to face your fears and come down that steep hill now,”
By Carrie Johnson5 years ago in Psyche
Victims Anonymous
I have spent my whole life trying to avoid being dubbed a victim. I avoided speaking about my issues in order to not be thought of as a dramatic crybaby. Yet I am here, crying over something a teenager said to me online regarding my recent openness.
By Guenneth Speldrong5 years ago in Psyche
Trauma and PTSD
Roughly 20% of people who have suffered through a severely traumatic experience or repeated trauma will develop PTSD. Also known as Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, this condition can last a short time, or in some cases, can cause symptoms and behaviors that last for years, decades, or the reminder of a person's life.
By Rebecca Brooks5 years ago in Psyche
A thankyou playlist to Christina Aguilera
This article is not an autobiography of Christina Aguilera. It is in fact a massively touching and heartfelt thankyou to one of my most admired females in the world of music of all time. This amazing singer picked me up at a time when my life shattered to pieces in ways that made me feel weak, vulnerable, pained, and more alone than I could have ever felt. During this time I was healing from a broken and traumatic past full of violence, abuse, and trauma including trauma from childhood and I had been raped, assaulted, and abused in ways that made me hate everything about myself, including my body. During this time, I lost my power, I became too weak to fight, and I blamed myself for everything I had been through, including all the violence. You'll know if you have read my previous articles, that I felt like a piece of dirt, who was only put on this earth to be a punchbag, and that I also spent so many years struggling with my sexuality, unable to come out because I was made to feel deeply ashamed of myself. You'll also know that I was left on the streets for a long time with no help, support, food, or shelter and that I was treated in brutal ways both before and after I ended up in that position. You'll also be aware that my mental health suffered severely and my own children ended up in the system, while I was ignored and got the blame for the violence by the very people who were supposed to help me, and that I went through a misdiagnosis of EUPD, a label slapped on me for many years after speaking out, then a re-diagnosis of PTSD, of which I am still recovering, and that I battled eating disorders, low self-esteem, low confidence, anxiety, depression, suicidal tendencies, and feelings and I had a bad love/hate relationship with my body which caused me to severely distort my opinion of myself.
By Carol Ann Townend5 years ago in Psyche
Narcissism and Abuse within BDSM Relationships; An observation.
A classic mindset I see time and again within any BDSM, or even alternative community is the mind set that a persons partner (Usually male), is gas-lighting or emotionally and psychologically attacking their partner to such a degree, where when the submissive partner say's something about it, automatically they will find a way to devalue, limit, or diminish the person in questions concerns, needs, or in some more serious cases, their safety. A classic example of this from just a domestic perspective is the age old:
By Seth Stephens5 years ago in Psyche
I hate Bonfire Night for a Reason
When my friends talk about November the 5th, they mention fire-work displays, wonder how big the bonfire will be, sparklers and Toffee Apples. They are usually excited planning their night out. However, they don't understand why I don't react in the same way, so for the first time since I was a young child, I am opening up about it.
By Carol Ann Townend5 years ago in Psyche
Twisted Trauma
In August of 2012, I finally achieved my childhood dream of becoming a Police Officer. I can remember as a young child, my obsession was taking scissors and cutting out pictures of Police Officers from magazines. I would cut them out perfectly and stick them all over my bedroom wall.
By Jon Perrin5 years ago in Psyche
