recovery
Your illness does not define you. It's your resolve to recover that does.
Wei Stark?
"Wei stark?" "How strong?" "How strong is the desire to use?" Her German grandmother asked. Curen had just arrived home from a nine-month stay at the Gwinnett County Jail. Her grandmother, that she hadn't seen in five years, came from Germany to welcome her back home. She had tried to visit her granddaughter multiple times throughout the years, but each time Curen was either locked-up or missing. Now, they set on the front porch, discussing future travel plans together. Tears stream down Curen's face as her grandmother invites her to visit her in Germany. Her grandmother can see the pain in her eyes, and quickly switches the conversation from the future to the past. She asks her why she always turns to drugs. "Is the desire to use that powerful?" "Tell me...please!" She pleads as the tears begin to fall from her eyes. No words are spoken as her grandmother tries to conceptualize how a simple drug could hold a power greater than all the possible good in the world. She can't understand how using could be so important, that it would be worth losing everything else you hold so dear to your heart. Curen continues to cry, close-lipped, wishing it was as simple as her grandmother sees it. Her desire to use, and her desire not to ever use again, grew with each tear that ran down her face. She could not push out of her head the thought that using would make this conversation so much easier. Curen finally breaks the silence with a familiar line, "Oma, I promise you I'll stay sober." "For good this time." Her grandmother wrestles with the thought of asking her why this time would be any different, but instead just grabs onto Curen's hands with her own, and squeezes tightly. Fingers intertwined, Oma looks into Curen's eyes, as she gazes at her feet.
By Danny Phillips5 years ago in Psyche
Counseling And RecoveryCenter
If you’re dealing with mental illness or some and of addiction which is holding you back from a fine present and a bright future then you should seek some help. Synergy in recovery facilitates counseling and recovery center where you can get expert counselors and medical team which will help you get out of your misery.
By James Charles5 years ago in Psyche
Staying Sober While Social Distancing for the Holidays
This year hasn’t been easy for most of us. If you’re in early recovery, you’ve not only faced the hardships related to a pandemic during an election year, but you’ve also overcome one of the most difficult challenges there is - getting sober. Now, the last thing you have to do to make it through 2020 is stay sober during the holidays. Being a time of year that is usually full of alcohol-filled celebrations and family gatherings, spending this holiday season sober and possibly away from your family may prove to be extra difficult. Here are 5 suggestions that may help you stay sober during the holiday season if you are social distancing and unable to see your family this year.
By Hailey Parks5 years ago in Psyche
Sobriety.
So yesterday I hit 70 days sober. I am very proud and feel amazing. I feel great physically and mentally more each day I wake up. If you know you know. My anxiety and depression has eased and calmed down, somedays I feel "normal". I've struggled for years and with COVID this year my drinking became out of control. I'm not ashamed of it but not proud, and hopefully I'm able to help someone someday that has gone throught the same situation. It was to where I wouldn't even eat or drink water in the morning I would just start drinking. Some days more and heavier than others. I have gone through a crazy amount of life events in the past year which lead up to the drinking I'm talking about. Personal events that I'd rather not mention because it's too painful to remember them but I got through it.My last night of drinking though I fell on my face and fractured my nose, that was a scary wake up call. I'm still here, healthy and happy. I thank God, the universe and my willpower. I honestly don't know what would happen if I had continued and it's not something I would want to know either. My partner, family and friends have been supportive big time. I did lose a couple friends but clearly they were not friends but 'drinking buddies' and I'm totally fine with that. I don't need negative people in my life when I want nothing but positivity. The new path I'm on is super exciting and has so many new surprises and doors opening. Unexplainable feeling. It's almost as if I feel everything is perfect! I have everything I ever wanted in life and that's what's a bit scary because not many people can say that or will recieve that. I never want to be that person again now that I've escaped. I was such a sad, lost and angry person. I wanted to give up but I knew there was more to life. More happiness and freedom just waiting for me to find it. I had to be strong. I am strong. You really have to want it in order to succeed. I find for me anyway that's the only way it works. I love the fact that I inspire others, puts a smile on my face. I have people who inspire me, it's a great circle. Being sober is something I'll forever be proud of. Now I am able to focus on the good things, all the things that were there the whole time. Little things that I forgot I liked. Painting, puzzles, word searches, taking pictures, etc. Waking up knowing what I did last night is a plus too. Not hurting people with words, not hurting myself, or losing touch with family. I promise myself I will never let that happen. It's not always easy but I got this. And if this is something familiar to you then I'm cheering you on 100 percent. Don't let yourself fall.
By Jennie Fontaine5 years ago in Psyche
Giving thanks to my darkness
Darkness, I am most thankful for you this year. Why you ask? I finally have found an answer. I am thankful for you.... Not because you sucked me down deeper and into your hole that filled with thoughts of no longer wanting to wake up and face he tomorrow that will continue to come even when your at your lowest of lows, not because you laughed at the sight of my tears after losing the only parent I had left to a non curable evil.... cancer. Not because you’ve introduced yourself into the homes of my fellow neighbors during this time of deadly virus, not because I have lost so much as many of us have, my home, my steady income.... and the one thing that led me to you, my mind.
By Alannah Cruz5 years ago in Psyche
You did WHAT?. First Place in Body Art Challenge.
I hope I do this right. Unfortunately, part of my story has to do with the loss of someone, and that beautiful, brilliant someone belongs to a number of beautiful, brilliant, strong family members and friends who sting for her every day. It’s impossible to think of a way to honor her properly in the framework of a narrative centered around me, and describing such grossly indulgent and juvenile behavior.
By Autumn Faithwalker5 years ago in Psyche
BodyArt Nature's Way
I think, like a lot of people, I'm obsessed by tattoos. Having 5 currently and more to come, I can say every-time I go, I'm already thinking of the next one I want. The way a tattoo artist seems to flawlessly ink away on your skin and making it a part of you is something nothing less than pure magic. Each one having such a personal meaning of something in your life. Something that has changed you, affected you or represents you. All so unique to each individual. Such perfection! (Unless of course it's a tattoo nightmare but I think there is a show for that already. And a whole different writing challenge!Ha!)
By Leslie Scott5 years ago in Psyche
