trauma
At its core, trauma can be thought of as the psychological wounds that persist, even when the physical ones are long gone.
Rabbit Cage
Imagine growing up dirt poor, like the other kids made fun of your shoes dirt poor under the "care" of a dangerous, violent, delusional psychopath. That's what I had going on. My father somehow ruined his mind with the most gentle "drug" experience that exists. He smoked a lot of weed and somehow it backed his mind up into his own special form of insanity and somehow, he remained violent...then he met my soon to be step-mother, a horrible, nasty, violent cunt herself. She once purposefully slammed a car door completely closed on my hand when I was in third grade. When she opened the door, my hand was shaped like the space between the door and the body of the car. It didn't break due to the incredible pliability of children's bones but I was both in pain and horrified. Yes, these are the two people that "raised" me and often let me know that my only value to them was a child support check. My birth mother was the first woman in Kentucky state history to lose custody of her children (she abandoned me as an infant, to die in the winter. I was an original trashcan baby. In her defense, so was traumatized by my father). I really lucked out with my childhood circumstance it seems.
By J.D. Bradley4 years ago in Psyche
Crash
At first there is nothing—the long, dark, infinite nothingness of oblivion where the conscience takes a backseat to the unconscious. Then there are the smells, crisp, vivid scents of fuel, smoke, ozone, burned rubber, and, oddly out of place, coffee. This is followed by sound, sounds so awful they grate the bone and chill the blood. These are screams—screams of fear, agony, pain, and shock. It isn’t until my fuzzy brain begins to clear that I realize these sounds are escaping from me.
By Laura Ball4 years ago in Psyche
Is it possible to LOVE your abuser?
When someone hurts you, it is them that is being toxic and unhealthy. And you are the victim of circumstance. So when you realize you are enduring abuse, it is really hard to tell someone to stop, or even leave the situation.
By Jaded Savior Blog4 years ago in Psyche
Seagulls Give the Eulugy
Meet Long Island, NY Sitting in her sheer bathrobe on her third story balcony, she picks up the local newspaper. In the tall windows next to her, she can see the reflection of both her lithe body and the glistening ocean. While sipping her Italian coffee, she flips to the article about the most recent murdered girl, found in the marshes of that very area.… An opinion piece by a former detective turned investigative-reporter, who has covered this string of murders over the past decade. She scours with intent curiosity, focusing on this excerpt:
By Jalyn Janvier4 years ago in Psyche
How Rape Changed My Life
I always knew, as a teenager, that men liked my body. I was a good girl, for the most part, but living in Hawaii, I wore bikinis a lot and I saw the looks and stares from grown men even though I was only 15 or 16. It made me uncomfortable to say the least but what can you do? I was 5'9" tall and weighted 124 lbs. My figure was a perfect 36/24/36 and I couldn't change that. It was who I was. I was ignorant at that point in my life. I wore clothes that showed off my figure and thought nothing of it. And why should I have, what I wore should not have defined what could happen to me. It was the mid 70's and life and love was wild and free, or so I thought.
By deborah bradley4 years ago in Psyche
Fawning: Another Fight, Flight, Freeze Trauma Response
What Is Fawning? With trauma responses we often think of Fight, Flight. Where in the face of threat our bodies gear up for a fight or to run away and flee. It then became popularly understood that there was another response, Freeze. Where we just freeze and can’t fight or run away. Often times there can be shame around this response because it’s not a very active way to respond, even if it’s our brain’s response and not our conscious choice.
By Kate Strong4 years ago in Psyche
Do You Ever Feel Guilty for Having a Good Life?
Do you ever feel like you don't really deserve all of the good things that life throws your way? It doesn't matter if you lived a hard life and was able to overcome obstacles, and you're entitled to finally have a little peace.
By Justiss Goode4 years ago in Psyche
