Tanya Arons
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I write about my life experiences. I write about complex ptsd, the agonies, the angst and my post traumatic growth. About Beauty, Truth and Honour and little vignettes of comfort from the spirits that love me: living and dead. I also Dance!
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Memories: 16 February 2026
16 February 2026 8:37 am I stopped breathing two times per hour. The cpap machine does not show how long those ceasages last for. Even in sleep I am holding my breath…waiting for Godot….the next dimension, an exit, an escape, an exhale. FFS!
By Tanya Arons 3 years ago in Journal
Memories: 12 February 2026
It’s enough to make Medusa’s hair curl….ohhh wait….right! 12 February 2026 8:11 am A good result. Another hot day yawns ahead. I woke up, from sleeping in the middle of my bed. Not hugging the edge of my beautiful queen sized bed like I usually do. This too is a good sign. Hugging the edge is when I am trauma activated and I have been sleeping that way for months.
By Tanya Arons 3 years ago in Journal
Memories: 9 February 2026
9 February 2026 9 February 2025 8:34 am Awake in the psychedelic dreaming, the holographic matrix, the unreal reality co-created daily in tandem with the gods. I enjoyed my burst of creativity making the shield charm for Luke Pammenton last night. I worked on it for five hours. My right hand got jewellers cramp and I had to stop but by then it was midnight. So I hit the hay.
By Tanya Arons 3 years ago in Journal
Memories: 6 February 2026
6 February 2026 8:35 am 6 February 2025 7:05 am I just woke up. I feel exhausted. Like I have been punched in the face. I am going to go to Redlands hospital after Ratih finishes cleaning at noon. Sit in ED department…in the hope a doctor there will cut out the cyst.
By Tanya Arons 3 years ago in Journal
Memories: 30 January 2026
30 January 2026 8:20 am I woke up about half an hour ago because the hose fell off my cpap mask. I think I need a new one. More money. I just rolled back over, took off the mask, went back to sleep. Now awake again. I feel drained like I have been hit by a bus. But my breathing result is not too bad. 1.1 events per hour.
By Tanya Arons 3 years ago in Journal
Memories: 28 January 2026
28 January 2026 10:20 am good morning. Another hot day ahead but here I am…alive and aware and holding my line on planet earth. My skin cancers are all sore but I will hopefully get seen in 2-3 months so all good. I am proud of myself for advocating so damn hard for myself, even though I was trauma activated. It’s difficult but astonishing how I fight through each day.
By Tanya Arons 3 years ago in Journal
