Merjaunie Lena
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Published Author— “ Thank you for showing me what I don’t need “ on Amazon.
Everyone has a form of art they are passionate about, well this is mine.
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I'm Okay
After two failed relationships, and the amount of pain, tears, insecurities, etc it all came with to absolutely break me. I have come to the conclusin that I am okay with being alone. I think I much rather prefer it, than to be able to give someone that power over my head again. To be able to hurt me, break me, make me cry. I'm okay is what I will always tell myself.
By Merjaunie Lenaa day ago in Poets
The Internet
How is it we once went from not having any social media, any cell phones, laptops. etc. To now its something none of us can live without. The Internet and all these new devices are supposed to make our lives easier, but instead it just consumes us all. It consumes us in ways it shouldn’t, for example you have someone trying to have a conversation with you, but all they are doing is looking at their phone. You’re telling me you cannot go a minute without looking at your phone while someone who is sitting right in front of you trying to have a conversation with you?
By Merjaunie Lenaa day ago in Journal
Bad mother?
As a mother we are always on mom mode 24/7. It never stops unless you actually put time aside during the day for yourself. Whether that be going to the gym which is what I do, or going out to eat with a friend, going for a hike. Just doing something that doesn’t involve taking your kids with you. Now what I learned is that it’s absolutely essential to make some time for yourself even if it’s for an hour or 2. That does not make you a bad mother! Creating this time for yourself helps keep you sane especially if you’re a stay at home mom and are inside all day. Don’t feel ashamed or feel bad for wanting some time for you. It’s okay to turn off mom mode for an hour or two and recollect yourself. Don’t let people’s opinions cloud your mind into thinking you’re a bad mother. You do what you have to do for yourself too. You have to make yourself happy too. I use to feel bad for asking my family to watch my baby so I can at least go to the gym. I felt bad to the point where I was so hesistant to ask, and didn’t go for a while. But in doing so I was becoming more irritated at home. Meaning I seemed like I was mad which was not the case. I didn’t have that time for myself to recollect and destress. It got to the point where my aunt asked me if I was okay, and I told her “ I’m just so bored being home”. So she suggested I go to the gym and she would watch my baby. What I learned from this is not to feel bad for putting yourself first sometimes. We all need some time for ourselves, it’s how we can recharge our battery. Make that time for you even if it is just a short amount of time. You will always be a mother first but before you became a mother you were just you. Still continue to do what make you happy, and what makes YOU.
By Merjaunie Lena4 months ago in Writers
Postpartum
No one talks about their demons they battle alone during postpartum. The struggle of wanting help but feeling so limited. The random burst of crying just to let out what you are feeling because even though you can try to talk to someone they will never fully understand.
By Merjaunie Lena8 months ago in Confessions
Detached
The great thing about finally being detached from someone you thought you’d never get over is that you feel free. You can see this person and feel nothing anymore. You talk to this person and no feelings resurface. Nothing about them or what they are doing or seeing or whatever the case maybe does not bother you, and that my friend is when you know you’ve finally moved on and are free from those emotions you thought would never go away.
By Merjaunie Lena9 months ago in Confessions
Thoughts that haunt me
It’s crazy how one traumatic situation can haunt you. Even though everything is going fine, you still linger in the back of my mind. You haunt me, you secretly drive me insane. You make me feel like I will never be able to come over this trauma.
By Merjaunie Lena9 months ago in Writers
